brown shogun classic: 2021-2023

These are all my logs of my initial journey into pickup, starting as a virgin in 2021, to getting an adorable girlfriend of my type in 2023.

I extracted and archived my posts from a site called Winner Within , formerly known as the Kill Your Inner Loser Forums. Links to other posts within this log should work.

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Fri 2023-05-12 07:49

15 approaches over 2.5 hours

i didn't approach for a few days because my discipline to my schedule was trash. being disciplined to my day is going to be my biggest struggle and i'm basically slamming my head at the wall with this but i'm going to just keep showing up i used to just "give up" on my plans if i missed something because i thought it was a failure if i missed the timing. but that's just a FAGGOT EXCUSE TO NOT DO YO SHIT BOI

anyway last night's sesh was pretty brutal, almost all ignored and i don't think i could get a conversation longer than 30 seconds

i think it's because my vibe was off from not being out everyday. if you're not at the stage of "enjoying approaching for the sake of it", you can't afford to skip even a day of approaching. i had to go out 11 days in a row to get over approach anxiety in america.

regardless I'm going to do 15 approaches again today since it's still scary
Fri 2023-05-12 17:03

FUCK

I HAVE ENOUGH HOURS IN THE FUCKING DAY

AND ALSO IN THE FUCKING WEEK

I'M PREPPING MY MEALS NOW

WHERE THE FUCK DO THE HOURS GO

GIVE ME MY FUCKING TIME BACK MOTHER NATURE!!!

STOP MAKING ME RANDOMLY FUCKING EXHAUSTED IN THE MIDDLE OF THE DAY YOU FUCKING BITCH!!!

AND WHILE YOU'RE AT IT FUCK YOU FOR MAKING ME PUSSY OUT ON GIRLS. ARE YOU TRYING TO FUCKING TELL ME I SHOULDN'T REPRODUCE????? FUCK YOU I'M GOING TO MAKE A GIANT FUCKING ARMY OF HALF BROWN HALF YELLOW WARRIORS AND INVADE YOUR FOREST CASTLE.

YOU SHOULD BE MAKING ME FUCKING EXCITED TO GO UP TO GIRLS AND FUCK THEM. WHY THE FUCK WOULD YOU MAKE AN ORGANISM THAT DOESN'T WANT TO REPRODUCE!!!

Sat 2023-05-13 11:31

15 approaches in an hour


i was fucking pissed at myself for going to bed late and not getting enough sleep, causing me to be tired throughout the day and not want to do anything

a lambo needs premium fuel!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! stop filling it up with lighter fluid!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i ended up going out at like 8:15pm which is way later than i wanted to. but it turned into a good opportunity to challenge myself to do my 15 approaches in an hour instead of staying out until 11:00pm and then getting like 6 hours of sleep (i have to get up early for school, and even if i dont have school, there's no reason to be out super late when there's plenty of time earlier in the day that i'm wasting)

there were so many approaches that were "scary"/i didn't want to do. girl is walking fast so i spend like 2 minutes following her, being surrounded by a fuckton of other people so they are going to see the entire approach, etc etc. admittedly i still pussied out on half of the girls i wanted to talk to.

but i just thought "every time i make this approach anyway, i am changing my pussy ass brain. neuroplasticity at work. soon my brain won't be working against me but for me. i want a brain that gives me my fucking dreams, not takes me away from them"

still definitely not used to having to actually push through girls that non-react or ignore you. yall in america have it easy lmao (maybe except for new york)

also still not being assertive of what i want, and letting girls just leave and go home/etc mid-interaction. i know the ability to be persistent and stick it out will come over time, i just need to freaking put in the work

i gotta get through my 1000 sets of hell as @AskTheDom says. probably in japan since the volume is insane and cold approach isn't even special, it's gonna be more like 5000 sets of hell.


notable interactions
been trying to fake out some girls by approaching them in english and then switching to japanese. there's a strat in here somewhere but i haven't found it yet. regardless, i've been doing it to girls that are dressed in a western/casual/lmao whatever style
[No approach audios on the forum]

told a chick her backpack looks like a zoo cuz it had a bunch of stuffed animal keychains. actually vibed for a bit and when i spoke to her in english, she spoke to me in japanese-accented chinese (which i've never heard in my life). didn't even attempt to divert her absolutely important plans of going home and watching netflix and instead let her escape through the train gate. FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
[No approach audios on the forum]


Sat 2023-05-13 17:04
AskTheDom wrote:
Sat 2023-05-13 16:48
Quality beats volume.
If you are doing 15 sets in an hour, something is off
i will find out what the deal is but

1) japanese stations and areas around the station are incredibly crowded and the hot girl volume is incomparable to probably anywhere else in the world (maybe korea)
2) nampa is basically not a big deal, there's no western common courtesy in the culture to acknowledge someone that's talking to you (in america, other than by asian fobs, i've rarely been ignored when i made approaches)
3) guys i've talked to here say they aren't even aware of how many girls they talk to in a day and say vague answers like "100-200 girls a day". same guys have hundreds of lays, even getting 2-3 lays a day isn't a huge deal for the top guys

by "i will find out what the deal is", i am going to be going into a coaching program here next month. will be updating on that

as a side note, it took me 4 hours to do 15 approaches a few sessions ago and that was pussying out on 80% of the girls i wanted to talk to
Sat 2023-05-13 22:32
caico11 wrote:
Sat 2023-05-13 20:41
Long term you can try insta pulls in all interaction
yeah that's the game in japan. it doesn't work in friendly smiles america, and regular dates are more effective there

but in fat boy tokyo it's
1. get ignored by 15 girls straight
2. finally get past the 15 second mark on a convo
3. hope you can vibe enough with the girl and realize to get her to do anything with you that you have to be persistent
4. if that fails, gotta rebuild your momentum and approach another 15 girls

AAAAAA ok dumb rant out lmao this is not helpful i'm sorry

i need to increase my value too, i do not have a solid archetype here and that's definitely killing my results.

also my vibe is still trash because i don't have the tenacity of japanese guys who don't give a fuck about being ignored and blown out 95% of the time.

japanese guys not only don't give a fuck about being ignored, they will tease the girl ignoring them about it.

japanese guys not only don't give a fuck about being ignored, they will literally have a one-sided conversation with a girl for 5 minutes.

then the girl will be like "i'll give you my contact..." but NO, they fucking turn down the contact, keep vibing with the girl, slowly cracking her shell as she lets out little giggles in between pretending to ignore you by looking at vapid tiktoks.

then the girl ends up following them into a convenience store, they buy drinks, he leads her into a hotel and the rest is history.

yes, behind all the male makeup, lipstick, earrings, and heels, these mfers are cold-blooded hunters. the game is literally wolf in sheep's clothing.
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this gayboy looking asshole bangs 2 girls a day from pushing on "oh idk maybe 100-200 approaches lol idk" in the station


as @caico11 said i need to keep slamming my head at the wall regarding this.

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20 approaches in 2 hours
getting coaching tomorrow from a local nampa guy (different than the main long-term coaching i plan to start receiving from june).
Sun 2023-05-14 00:01

i think at the end of the day, i am literally in the biggest city in the world, approaching in the 3rd busiest train station of said city.

some chick shopping at the grocery store in nashville has probably never been talked to by a random guy while shopping. and while she may have a good amount of male attention, she's in fucking nashville lmao

the tune changes when you're a hot girl who literally just exists in the world's biggest megacity, being approached for various reasons even other than nampa (girls bar scouts, modeling, hell even AV idol scouts), let alone probably regular nampa guys, most who probably suck at it.

it would make sense for a girl to just straight up ignore anyone, especially a guy, trying to talk to her.

but the fact that "persist through being ignored" is an effective strategy is actually telling an important story here. first of all, there are two categories of girls who ignore you (yes this is from my experience)
1. they immediately run off, change directions, or politely bow out and then accelerate
2. they keep walking at an unchanging pace. maybe they took a microsecond glance at you. if they're an absolute angel, perhaps they even removed an earbud for you! (hell would freeze over if they actually decide to speak at this point)

category 1 is basically out. move on

category 2 is the one where the set isn't dead. this is where you straight up have to create an entire vibe completely on your own with nearly no help from the girl. i've only been able to crack through 10-15 second shells a maybe 2 or 3 times tops.

i think the implication here is that japanese girls really want a guy who will fucking lead them. a guy who doesn't give a fuck about how she reacts, and will do everything for them.

like that would mean obviously if you're still pussying out after her non-react to "hello" then you weren't a masculine enough guy to begin with. and obviously getting past hello isn't enough either. she wants you to "pitch her" that you're the masculine man she desires from entirely your vibe without her help

i've seen the flipside of japanese girls where they absolutely adore you, send long messages, want to meet always, etc.

but you have to earn it, you have to prove up front that you can handle the huge obstacle of "a 38kg tiny japanese girl ignoring me boo hoo" and build trust in her so you can get the "submissive asian girl of your dreams"

as someone who thinks cats suck and just sleep all day (sorry crisis......) and loves energetic beaming dogs, this is literally the hardest thing i will accomplish in my life. doing this will mean i will be able to accomplish anything else i want to for the rest of my life.

i actually think (non-manhattan) america is easier for me (personally). but i didn't come to japan to geomaxx lmao

Sun 2023-05-14 18:16
Crisis_Overcomer wrote:
Sun 2023-05-14 17:59
colgate wrote:
Sat 2023-05-13 22:32
AAAAAA ok dumb rant out lmao this is not helpful i'm sorry
No, this is helpful so keep at it, onegai simas.

I would be interested to read your insights now that you've been to Japan for some time.

Mainly, how do they compare to Voldemort's. A few questions that pop into mind are how insta pullable are girls, what other players are doing to hook up with 2-3 kawai-hochans a day, how important is being fluent in Japanese, etc. I'm literally in "GTFO of here" mode and want my subconscious to start accepting the idea of playing the dating game in easy mode elsewhere.
well i still suck so i don't have any real insights lol

i can only document my journey from a total noob alien to every weeb otaku's dream come true personified. plus i'm trying to jump into the japanese nampa scene and follow what those guys are doing (as opposed to the foreigner scene that @Toast jumped into)

my visceral self wants to say "japan is easy if you are either a kpop idol or an unassuming white guy" (i heard @lacroix has already gotten some daygame lays and had girl-level abundance on the apps in korea). but even the top guys get overwhelmingly ignored and i'd imagine even if you already neatly fit into a high-value archetype here that you'd have to get over it (check out @ Toast 's log)

if you just want to play easy mode, i'm not sure how much japan fits that bill. maybe if you go to roppongi (foreigner central). maybe i need to get over my hatred of non-japanese speaking whatever bs white guys and head over to roppongi.

i'm not even sure how much japanese fluency helps. i could make bullshit hypothetical arguments in 12 different directions with this but i literally don't have enough experience or skill to make any real analyses. being fluent (enough) in japanese at least makes me not feel like a total fucking loser lol

gonna head over to the onsen to meditate and write a better post than this one lol
Sun 2023-05-14 18:23

22 approaches over 2 hours.
1 contact!! was a chick in my neighborhood that i originally pussied out on but decided to chase her down and talk to her anyway.

got some coaching today from a local. he actually said i should push the "american international student" frame because it'll create some safety in the girls + i don't even look american. also he said "sumimasen" is totally fine for me now.

i actually got ignored less than i usually do thanks to his advice.

but still pussying out on girls not because i couldn't make the approach, but because i keep predicting that the conversation will be trash and real fucking awkward.

i deliberately tried some approaches where i knew i would absolutely have no idea what to say in any capacity whatsoever and while i was able to do it, i straight up bounced mid-convo

ok ok i'm going to the fucking onsen sheesh
Sun 2023-05-14 23:23

did sauna 10mins x2 + cold water baths and then journaled for 2 hours

wrote up a bunch of word vomit and then reformatted it into something (maybe???) palatable.

advice, etc. appreciated



issues
value/archetype
no archetype, japanese girls have no idea where i am supposed to fit in their world.

i don't have "foreigner charm" because most japanese girls' idea of "foreigner" is "unassuming talllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll white guy" so i need to put in work here.

pretty boring fashion. i had to toss out a lot of my clothes because they started looking like crap and i experimented with uniqlo oversized casual clothes which honestly just look plain. consulting with a japanese mom is definitely NOT the call for fuckboy fashion lmfaooooo, no matter how much she insists that she used to be a big fashionista and shows you her magazine shoots from 10 years ago,

i want japanese girls to want me as a part of their world.

conversation on the approach
bad at conversation, resorting to machine gun questioning, even i straight up escape from the conversation like a scared cat.

i want to enjoy conversation and i want the girl to enjoy it too.

persistence/objection handling
bad at persisting. from what i hear, japanese girls basically always reject the first request and i keep chickening out from the interaction then.

i want to learn how to handle objections from girls and in general i want girls to follow my lead

white guys with japanese girls
i keep raging at white guys with japanese girls speaking english, maybe it’s because i had to hustle to get here (mostly self-studied japanese) and i want to find my place here, but somehow the guys who just ignore all of that see more success than i do

honestly i want this to just be out of my mind.

solipsism !!!
i’m extremely self-centered and don’t seem to care about the other person. i’ve heard this not just from my japanese friends, but even japanese nampa guys have criticized me on talking about myself too much. and i’ve seen enough external evidence of 8-year-old-like solipsism being japanese girl’s #1 pet peeve

how can i stop being so fucking obsessed with myself when i’m interacting with girls. or maybe, how can i make this not my detriment?

solutions
value/archetype
THERE IS LITERALLY A FUCKING 70000 CHARACTER LOOKSMAXXING/VALUEMAXXING GUIDE WRITTEN BY THE GUY YOU WANT TO GET COACHING FROM. IT’S ONLY $200!!!! FUCKING BUY IT AND FOLLOW IT! GOD DAMN IT! WHY ARE YOU FUCKING WAITING FOR JUNE TO HAPPEN! YOU’RE GOING TO HAVE TO DROP MONEY ON CLOTHES, PROCEDURES, ETC ANYWAY SO WHY FUCKING WAIT YOU CHEAPSKATE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
https://tips.jp/u/minorun/a/Q4UY4WVa

conversation on the approach
you’d enjoy conversation more if you enjoyed approaching more in the first place. if your stomach is churning before you even go up to the girl, how the fuck are you supposed to vibe?? remember when you enjoyed prancing up at dozens of girls per day???

ONE AT A TIME. just fucking crush your approach anxiety. forget about results. forget about “quality” forget about whatever weaknesses in approach interaction quality you never resolved in america that’s psyching you out now. how the fuck are you supposed to have a quality interaction if you dread making the fucking approach in the first place?? there is a lot of value in the “enjoy rejection” mindset that you seem to have abandoned.

remember that you were able to improve your interaction quality in austin after spam approaching in nashville when you were at a point that going up to a girl was subconscious. THIS IS THE THOUSAND SETS OF HELL.

plus there are so many fucking recordings of approaches and dates in japanese on youtube. just slam your ears with it. you are doing some of that now, but you just need to have more and more input of good approach conversations. plus it will improve your stunted japanese

persistence/objection handling
mostly the same as above, but additionally, you started becoming good at objection handling and persistence, and leading in general once you were really in the flow of approaching. so many instadates and pulls created from being persistent. even 2 of the lays you got were from persistence. this is another problem that will be fixed with more action (of approaching rn)

solipsism !!!
ok i'm gonna rant here because i'm kind of at a loss for this one

i’ve heard it before but i didn’t think it was a problem until recently and i have no ideas on how to solve this one.

i’ve certainly been jealous of guys who can just mirror girls’ emotions and make them feel understood, which is ultimately what a lot of girls want.

i think because i’m so focused on trying to save myself from an dreadful future that i’d rather not get into detail here about, i only have the natural mental bandwidth to think about myself and how can i make myself better. the thing is that girls dont give a fuck about how you’re making yourself better. they want you to understand their world and be someone they can rely on.

i dont go to a bike shop repair owner for him to vent to me about his kids, i go there to get my fucking bike fixed. and for girls that includes being able to understand them

ok i know all that on an autistic informational level, but i don’t know how to apply it.

and i feel like every time i’ve gotten dinged for this by so-called “empaths”, they somehow fail to empathize with specifically me and my lack of natural subconscious perfect-pitch-like empathy that they have, like they are always fucking confounded at how i didn’t feel what the girl was feeling or some shit. it only leads me to want to self-indulge even more.

anyway WHO IS THE EMPATHY MASTER??? I WANT TO TALK TO YOU. LET’S CALL. I’ll PAY YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! GIVE ME SOME EXERCISES OR SOMETHING I CAN DO. I'M A DUMB RETARD WHO CAN'T APPLY THEORY UNLESS HE'S GIVEN CONCRETE ACTIONS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Mon 2023-05-15 22:11

i also approached a girl last night outside of a cold approach sesh on my way home from the onsen! it's coming back!

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25 approaches over 2 hours
1 instadate (first ever in japan!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)
1 contact



btw let me know if u guys want me to keep posting the session start/end pics lol

i was listening to some nampa audios on youtube before my sesh and realized the guy is saying total fucking bullshit. and japanese girls love total fucking bullshit humor.

on the other hand, the only way to be able to do that is to literally not know what you are going to say ahead of time, and be comfortable with that, and embrace it. like you literally have to go into every interaction embracing the fact that you will literally have no idea what you are going to fucking say.

and ironically this coincided with the fact that i needed to just fucking stfu about conversational skills and make the damn fucking approaches!!! that was what i journaled yesterday
colgate wrote:
Sun 2023-05-14 23:23
ONE AT A TIME. just fucking crush your approach anxiety. forget about results. forget about “quality” forget about whatever weaknesses in approach interaction quality you never resolved in america that’s psyching you out now. how the fuck are you supposed to have a quality interaction if you dread making the fucking approach in the first place?? there is a lot of value in the “enjoy rejection” mindset that you seem to have abandoned.


so i started by approaching a girl on the way to the station. after learning that she lives in the burbs, i started rambling about how my classmate is always late because he lives with his girlfriend in the middle of fucking nowhere. i didnt give a fuck lmao. was an easy opportunity to segue into asking if she has that kind of relationship. had some random convo but she was like determined to enter the train gates so i bounced.



on my 7th approach, i saw this suuuuuuuper fucking slim chick with a fuckton of makeup and red lipstick. so fucking hot!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! omfg this is why i came to japan!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i was like fuck better get this ignore out of the way

excuse me, why do you have an umbrella (it was raining during the sesh)
*takes out earbuds*
yeah the weather is fucking awesome i have no idea what you would need an umbrella for
what are you doing
nah just thought you were cute so i wanted to say hi

had a little bit of a boring chat at first and i stumbled over my japanese like 20 times. i was like damn this kinda sucks but she was listening.

we got into an entrance of a mall area. i didnt want to go fucking shopping so i just stopped and asked where she was going. after joking that she's just going to buy more flower-patterned dresses i was just like, let's go to a cafe i've never been to one around here.

we're only gonna go to a cafe right?
yeah you gotta meet your friend after right lol <--- i'm thinking i should push it back on the girl like "oh you want to go somewhere else too?" in the future
i just dont want to run into weirdos...
ah yeah there are a lot of weird people here, i just moved here and would probably get tricked easily too

so we went to the cafe, and she called my perfect american accent pronunciation of the cafe name cool!!!!!! omg guys!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! a girl thinks im cool!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

we get tea and sit down and have about a 30 minute date. i haven't been on a date in like 8-9 months, but unlike my old dates, now that i actually have some experience i had some real stories to tell, so i actually felt more comfortable. i tried to avoid keeping it on me too much by asking if she had similar experiences and getting into her dating experience. since i can't post recordings here and it's in japanese anyway i'm gonna get some feedback from one of my senseis.

and uncharacteristic of literally every japanese girl i've talked to in japan up until now, she was also asking me questions and stuff. so that was cool.

when i asked why she stopped and wanted to talk to me, she said she's wanted to talk to foreigners but she can't speak english and i'm literally the first foreigner she has ever had a conversation with in her whole life. god i am so fucking glad i can speak japanese.

i tried to pull with the same strat i was using in nashville by introducing that i make music and i can show it to her at my place, she hummed and hawed, went to the toilet, and then we left.

mmm...yeah i don't think i can go to your place...i gotta meet my friend soon...and we just met
i can show you just 1 song and you can chill. when your friend contacts you then you can leave
hmmm...anyway let me pay you back for the smoothie

we went into a convenience store and i debated in my head whether i should buy us some drinks and chill at my place but i ended up not doing anything. she gave me 500 yen for her drink.

then i said, let's walk around while your friend comes. we walked for a little bit. she even put her umbrella over me. AGHHHH missed opportunity to probably hold her hand or engage some physical contact oh well freaking next time FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (i didnt even think of it in the moment)

but then she froze.

yeah, i gotta go meet my friend now and i hate the rain...
ok, let's meet when it's sunny lol. let me grab your contact
hmm ok, line?
yeah line is good

then we parted ways




oh my fuCKING GOD she was SO FUCKING HOT OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I WANT TO FUCK HER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LITERALLY 100% MY TYPE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

also she was taller than me. WHY THE FUCK IS EVERY GIRL WHO ACTUALLY LIKES ME TALLER THAN ME AAAAA I WANT A TINY FUCKTOY GIRL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (ok but she wasn't 6'5" and maybe it was just her heels making her taller than me)

i swear to god she weight like fucking 20 lbs tho. she was so thin. omg i want to pick her up and fuck her against the wall GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


lol this is the 20+ days of nofap and cold showers speaking


also i am totally wrong about foreigner being "unassuming white guy" for all japanese girls. i think that might be the case with some, but for others it's just any non-asian looking person. regardless it doesnt fucking matter because my BROWN ASS INSTADATED A HOT JAPANESE GIRL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! it's only a matter of time!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! guys!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and this happened over only a total of maybe 100-150 approaches and i still fucking suck at this! god i cant wait until i get better and i can meet these kinds of girls every day!!! it's going to fucking happen!!!!! i'm going to be approaching 100 girls every day and taking multiple girls like this to cafes and convenience stores, and most importantly, my HOUSE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (and maybe hotels)



notable interactions/random shit i had fun with
- before the instadate girl, i went up to a girl standing and literally was like "i like you, please go out with me" and she bounced instantly. that gave me a huge rush lmao
- "hey you speak english? oh me neither, guess we're both stuck with japanese then. it's really hard to get good at english, i've never left tokyo in my whole life"
- variation of the above if she does say "a little" or "yeah", "oh that's cool because i don't speak any english" (switch to english) "yeah i have no idea how to speak english"
- pretending i'm bruno mars and coming up with a name for a girl when she says her name is a secret and then talking about how this is a beautiful encounter between me bruno mars and her

^ LITERALLY what i realized before the sesh came true. i didn't think up of any of these before the sesh, and as i said i just went into every interaction deliberately making sure i had nothing prepared to say to the girl when i went up to her. there were plenty of times when i blanked out and had very bad and awkward conversations too. i just allowed myself to have them and give myself permission to suck and bounce out of interactions i couldn't enjoy and move on. it was definitely easier to do that today, knowing that it is possible for me to instadate a really FUCKING HOT GIRL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i think the straight up ignores went down by like 10% too. out of the 25 approaches i think i had about 4-5 conversations that lasted longer than 30 seconds which is good.

also even through the ignores i just naturally persisted through some of them. i think the ignores "went down" because after 10 seconds of persisting some of them removed their earbuds/acknowledged my existence and started talking with me. i literally didn't give a FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

that being said i have a loooong way to improve on "cracking shells". but i'm starting to see how it works for myself





i leave you all with this image which i haven't bothered reading yet
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